THAT’S NOT VERY SPIRITUAL NOW IS IT ONENESS SANKARA!
I (like you) am a spirit having a human experience. One that I honour respect and am hugely grateful for. I choose to live in awareness of the different levels of self. I meditate, coach, am coached, do Reiki and … Sometimes I get mad. Like fire raging. I get pissed of and swear like I was in the Navy.
Being ‘spiritual’. Having spiritual practice doesn’t turn you into a l levitating lotus flower. Although I believe that anything is possible – but my experience the ability to viscerally feel doesn’t disappear. We learn to work with it yes, learn from it yes, catch ourselves yes, and sometimes it just is what it is.
What I will say is that spiritual practice does help call me out of my funks quicker and it does help me to find peace but it doesn’t take my human-ness away.
So if you are on a spiritual path and you still get mad. Its ok. Don’t beat yourself up about it. Like everything. This too will pass.